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Jenny Oleinik:

"Fuck This Damned Reality...
I hate It.
I wish I could live in my fantasy worlds,
filled with only Love. No hate,No drama,no shit...Just love....

As I just told my dear Fariha Riaz ;
I'll turn into a hypocrite,and be like a selfish PIG and commit suicide
if my dreams dont come true and if my soul's true other half never shows up...
One day in this damned reality."

A Moment Of Criticising Honesty.(About Myself)

I  Wish. . . People Could Look Into My Eyes

And See Everything In Them

That I need to,And want to express and say to the damn world.

--->I will now write about myself and my feelings,

Being honest and admitting everything about my self.

I am Jenny.

I am a complex human being.

I am made of two halves,as one.

Two completely different halves

That make One- Jenny Oleinik...

I am a half of,
as i have been told... An Angel..
People have actuallly valled me an angel ...
They said there is a light in me,
　I understand them oh so well.
　they see me as perfect,
　they compliment me,
　are jelous of me,
    Some want to be me
　and what not...
　I find it shocking and crazy.
　And that half is oh so passionate and caring
　and understanding and beautiful and loving...


Then there's my other half,
　the dark half,
The Ying of the yang,
The thorns,
　The messed up,cruel being.
The one that expects way too much from the world,
when at times i dont even give that myself....
　That's fucking awful.. and i do that.. I admit that.
　The part of me that hates humans
for what they have become,
for how they behave,
the half that's slightly obsessed with the bit of uniquness it has,
and at times it's kept alive by the fact that nobody is as good as her. . .
When actually...
It could all be lies.      Im admitting that.


I am such a jelous cow. I admit it.
Envy seems to adore taking over me at times.
Life and friendships/relationships get hard at times because of that.
I do want someone all to myself.
 but In life,that aint gonna be possible. .
Because the damn world doesnt revolve around damn me.

I get jelous and hurt when I see a friend dear to telling me how
important somebody else is to them.
I hate it.  Im admitting it.

I can be very ugly.
Im admitting it. Yet i say that alot when i see my face in the mirror.
Im not BEAUTIFUL. If i was,i might be happy and proud.
 The only physical beauty i see in myself,by myself, Are My Eyes.
if only everybody could just pay attention and look through them.


It pisses me off when people get everything they want (or sometimes dont even want)
And even more,and they dont even deserve it.
 I admit it.     Because when i tell that to myself,
 I am in a selfish mood because I try my ass off at shit that I really want,
and yet I never get anything.
 And that makes me a hypocrite- I admit that.
I am a huge hypocrite at times.
 And i can be extremely selfish. I admit that.


A while ago,I did a test.
It was Numerology. I believe in all that stuff-Astrology,Runes,Numerology,etc.
 So,when I read my MASSIVE results,I was even kindof shocked..
It tottally described me to the core of my soul and every bone marrow in me.

'Because you are so highly charged, you experience the consequences of a two-edged sword. You possess great abilities, but indulge in much self-reflection and self- criticism. You often feel highly self-conscious. You are aware on some level that you stand out. Even when you try to blend with your environment, you often feel conspicuous, alien, and out-of-place. ..'
I criticise myself. ALOT.    I admit that.



I am a fat cow- I love to eat my food.
 I admit that.  At times,Im like Joey in friends :  'JOEY DOESNT SHARE FOOD!'
Because im hungry at times,and selfish,yet again.
 And I am now 10 kilos overweight. And its MY fault - I admit that too.
I need to loose them. Or else
1) I'll never be happy.
2)My mum,photographer,grandmother and director will always keep telling me to my face or behind my back,to my mother.
3) I'll always be jealous of other girls in stageschool or auditions,or places
    because they're all skinny-long-haired-pretty people.

 Plus,The camera adds a loud of kilos.
So,I am even more fatter in a video or photo than I already am In reality.
So cop onto yourfuckingself Jenny and stop eating shit.
Hey,At least I know all this and admit it to myself.


Well....Right now its 3:05 am. And thats quite alot of criticising.
For now anyways. That's all I have,for now once again.
Whoever reads this,Thank You for reading
 and I hope that now you might have an
insight into my personality.Even just a wee bit.
I cant really think of anything right now...
 So, Jenny - O u t.   ~JenN.||♥



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Ahhh.  S C A B I O R.

 I wanna eat him up.

And let him snatch me.