In a way,I am very glad that 2010 is over and done with.
It was an AWFUL year.
So,so,SO much heartbreak, pain,manipulating,hatered,
Name-calling,rudeness,pathetic humans,Yelling,
Underestimating me and judging me <---THE worst thing to do to me By the way
So much telling me off,being awfully awful to Jenny.
It was absolutely,100% awful!!
It ruined my year.
It turned me into a lump of depression,self-pity and negativity.
And I HATE it. I want my optimism back.
I want my innosence back.
I want my life-loving self back.
But eh.This is a clean start.
A fresh book.
A brand new,clean,lovely-new-paper-smelling journal. ->
(I adore journals,Books,Diaries,Notebooks.))
Hence,the love for brand new lovely-smelling books :'D
Anyyyyways, I WANT to be happy.
I WANT to smile constantly like i did before.
I want to enjoy living everyday,again.
I want to smile at others,
Though a part of me,is always telling me HELL NO!
Look at what the hell they all did!! LOOK how they HURT YOU!
You just CANT forgive them and you CANT dare SMILE at them,they are pigs.
Yes,Almost all the people in my year are pigs. And I have to deal with those pigs for a long,long time.
Three damned YEARS of school to go for Jenny.
I honestly have NOO idea how the hell im gonna live through
THREE more years of that hellhole called school...
But like my mother keeps telling me,and Goddes,Thank you for her and bless her.
She listens to me (though not the way I would want to be heared and understood,sometimes)
But she listens. And Im glad she lets me love Wicca,and im thankfull she is an amazing woman and mother.
I do not see it alot of the time,and that i regret deeply when she doesnt see it.
Because I Love my mum. She is amazing.
I am so glad that she is a spiritual and intelligent human.
Those who are not,I find myself either 1)Disliking them strongly
or 2) Finding them awfully boring and awfully awful
or sometimes worse,I wont get into it.
I just need to and want to find more and more intelligent,great,good-hearted,spiritual people as i grow up. Because I need them.
I will die with theese pathetic stupid teenage kids who care about
only their shitty in-the-charts-rap-like-crap-shit,naked guys and girls,
Sex,Drugs,Drinking,and their fucking Addidas =_____=
I SWEAR,I WILL DIE DD;
Anyways,yet again,
I REALLY,really,reeeeeeeally hope,with all my damn heart,
That this is AN AMAZING YEAR.
It just HAS to be.
I think i was misreble-as-fuck enough.
WAAAY too much shit was thrown at me in 2010.
Maybe i deserved some of it,yeah okay.
But half of it,i am sure i didnt.
Im just going to look at it as,what my mother says too,
Challenges.
Karma and Life,are two bitches who will ,
many a time,Enjoy,throwing random problems and challenges at my face,
Through-out my entire life,as long as that may be.
And ME,Myself and I, have a massive task-
I must face theese problems,challanges,and fears- face them and solve them,
improve them, work them out, keep on living.
No matter WHAT,I must Keep Living.
I must always,always
K e e p M o v i n g F o r w a r d .
|_____ That stuff right there,Yeaah. DO THAT.
